
A week into training for the Kilimanjaro Marathon I hit my first wall today. It happened as I started kilometer 17 in my 20k run. At this 17k point there is a steep incline to overcome. I honestly thought that I was going to stop jogging and start walking. It would have been so much easier; it would have felt so good! This wall provided me a very strong temptation to give in and start walking. But, I quickly remembered two things just as I was slowing to a stroll... (1) The gifts and calling of God are without repentance and (2) Jesus Christ endured all of His temptations to the end. (Now, I do realize that running is a physical exercise, and these two facts are spiritual truths. However, after some recent study on the composition of a human being, I think it is silly for us to discount that every facet of our lives affects every other area of our lives. That is to say... God created us with bodies, minds, emotions, spirits, etc. so that we live as whole people, not dissected disciples!)
Today's training wall, in a very strong way, caused me to reflect on God's call on my life and that of our family as missionaries in Tanzania. It would be spurious to say that we have never been tempted to "Jump ship!" or "Get outta Dodge!" in regards to life and ministry in Tanzania. Through the pain of today's wall I reminded myself that God's directive was for us to come to Tanzania, not leave. By God's grace we will stay until the work He has given us is done!
Another thought that helped me push through the pain had to do with the the fact that Jesus Christ was victorious over every temptation He ever faced. Because His divine nature could not succumb to sin (that is, He is impeccable) some have suggested that His temptations were not real. However, just yesterday (great timing!) I read this while at study - "Many theologians have pointed out that only he who successfully resists a temptation to the end most fully feels the force of that temptation. Just as a champion weightlifter who successfully lifts and holds over head the heaviest weight in the contest feels the force of it more fully than one who attempts to lift it and drops it, so any Christian who has successfully faced a temptation to the end knows that that is far more difficult than giving in to it at once. So it was with Jesus: every temptation he faced, he faced to the end, and triumphed over it. The temptations were real, even though he did not give in to them. In fact, they were most real because he did not give in to them." (Systematic Theology, Grudem, p. 539)
As I pushed through this first wall, which was almost forcing me to stop... I said a prayer of thanks to God... I thanked God for calling me to Tanzania, and asked Him for strength to not give in to the pressures of life here. I also thanked God for the power of Christ to conquer all temptation, and asked Him to help me not quickly give in to the allurements of the world. By the time these recollections and prayers were over I had reached the top of the incline and was glad to be able to finish the 20k without walking.